blinded by the light

I woke up this morning and trudged over to my computer, sat down my face obnoxiously close, clicked the mouse and I was blinded by the light.  I was like "#_______#"
Ugh, I can't believe I left my xbox on all night.   I've been really good about turning stuff off lately.  Life feels like a faery tale right now (I was listening to "Da Game is to be Told, Not to be Sold by Snoop Dogg" and right as I was a bit lost for words, Mystical said that and I was like "I'll run with that.")  I hope there's a happy ending ever after.  Snoop Dogg says "Slow your roll, Junior, slow down."  I can't fight the feeling sometimes.  I want this so bad but don't want to overwater the flower pot so to speak.  That's my two cents for today.  Well screw me sideways, I'm reading the JFT and the topic for today is JFT.  It states, "when we stop living in the here and now, our problems become magnified unreasonable."  "Just for today, I will stay in the here and now.  Today, this moment, I am free."  Ok, I'm done quoting, I wasn't planning to write anything and keep it simple.  I feel like some things in my life are being a little rushed right now, but I've decided to stay in California instead of moving back to Georgia.  My school counselor told me that I needed to make up for the two In-completes from last year which turned to F's.  We planned out a schedule for the next two quarters where I could re-boost my GPA while at the same time taking classes geared towards Business Administration to prepare for following it as a major.  I feel really good with my decision to stay here, extra motivations or no, my heart is in California.  I didn't really want to leave deep down in my heart of hearts.  I'd miss San Jose too much, it's become my home.  It's not even just that, I feel like I could live anywhere in California as long as I'm in California.  I don't want to just cast my new made friendships in the fellowship of NA and AA to the wayside.   I don't want to start over in Georgia knowing no one, in a place I left because I was miserable there.  I want to get my CADC at SJCC as well when I transfer to a school, hopefully Santa Clara University.  I've started the application process.  I found out all the deadlines so I'm working on Olgethorpe University in Georgia by my house because it's deadline is in November.  There are just so many miracles in my life right now.  I don't want to lose my luck and be in the wrong place at the wrong time without the support I have here.